May 8, 2010

a lament

Nothing lasts forever…now I know.

I do not, or rather, cannot share what is happening to me at the moment. All I can say is that, this probably is one of the saddest times of my life. I have done everything to distract myself. Actually, I think I have an account in every popular site such as Tumblr now. But hold your horses, don’t ‘google’ me because I hid myself behind a codename that I am sure none of you has ever heard of.

I am really, really sad that not even Plants vs. Zombies can cheer me up. Even now, I am crying. And there is nothing I or you can do to stop the tears from falling.

I still cannot understand why, and he cannot either.

I can move on.

I must move on.

It may not be too late yet, but I do not want to expect too much.

Comments will be highly appreciated.

(at least I will know that I am still loved)


the bipolar stargazer said...

There was this line from a movie that was said by the leading man, "You've got nothing to lose if decide to dump someone whom you you can't even see your forever with." I believe I asked you the same question in formspring..and your answer was certain. Positive.

If I were to ask him that question, I'm sure he would have the same answer as yours. But it doesn't mean that forever starts now. Sometimes, the words "I love you" are not enough to answer the important "whys" in a relationship. Sometimes they even complicate things more. Not that I'm telling you it's over for good. What I mean to say is, it might be over for now. (Though kayo lang talaga makakapagsabi nun).

Rest assured, you have good foundation na naman. :) If you decide to go on separate ways and, God willing, meet in the future, you'll have those 3 GOOD years to look back to. At least you won't need to start from scratch. :)

About the moving on part, well, we've had our fair share of heartbreaks, none of which was easy to overcome. Move on but don't forget. The people who resort to forgetting are those who think that the whole relationship was a mess, thus realizing that they never saw their forever with that someone.

Move on, but don't forget Joyce. :) So that once "forever" starts (maybe in the near future), you'll have those good and bad timeswith you and maybe you'll realize, the heartbreak, the tears, and the pain, are all worth the wait. :)

Godbless! Let's hang out kung ready ka na makakita ng mga tao. >:D<

Anonymous said...

Effie said it all. Now I can't think of anything else to say.

We can do this Joyce. You know how much we love you. :)

I miss you. :D

Alyzza said...

I'm lost but you can PM me if you like. :D


Erin said...

I feel like I'm intruding, especially since we've only been friends for a year. Yet I just had to tell you this.

I don't know much about this part of you and you know I don't push you to tell me. But do realize that I care about my friends, my Carabaos. :) So if one day you get tired of plowing the field, perhaps I can push you from behind, short and chubby as I am, along with the rest of the Jerks.

You know we all love you. >:D<

Joyce said...

Awwwww. Thank you guys for the support.>:D<